Would you agree that doubt is for the pessimist, what hope is for the optimist? Fuel for life. That happens to be the name of my cologne but for now I felt like it was fitting for the blog. Its obviously going to be your take on your experiences. Was it for better or worse? Was it a loss or gain? I always boast about how self-aware I am but in this case I can’t exactly I.D. myself. Jay West +/- ??? I kinda seasaw between the two and it drives me maaaad! I say this from my emo soapbox.
I’m in a drought right now. There are days when doubt is so overwhelming and I can’t get past myself to make myself do better. I sit and I sulk and all the world looks gray and I can only think of what’s wrong in my world. Its actually quite pitiful. Not really a side of myself that I like to share because it sounds bitchy but that is a blog for another day. Nonetheless, I hit a wall when I'm trying to write sometimes. Is there any other artist who goes into a panic when they can't work?
When I was a kid I used to wonder if I would only have enough to say for 3 albums…Oh dear god, please no less! I think about that now and I can see the good in my work ethic. I like that I can see my limits. I’m not gassing, there's a reason that I'm better than a lot of other rappers. Its because I refuse to work when I'm on a creative drought. If its wack, the rhyme will never make it past these 4 walls. I go until I have exhausted all of the ideas in me and then I stop, promptly call a girl, have a drink, watch a film or play a video game.
See, its simple. I pay for studio time so I make sure my songs are hot before I ever record. They only get better from there with the help of my team.
A friend told me that hindsight is 20/20. I see it clearer now looking back and there is no need to doubt...but if I ever do its that time that makes for good songswriting later.
