BB Notes: 8.3.11

A Toast...

After D+C I realized something about myself or moreso about my work. I don't want to be the guy with the overpriced art that nobody can relate to. I don't want to be a rebel without a cause. I want to create good work. I want to convey an idea that people can connect with. And That is that people want better for themselves and at our core we are willing to sacrifice for the greater good. I want to receive Champagne for my pain.

In America, people give their lives to their jobs. Its the kind of place where what you do defines who you are, at least for most people. I wish it could be the other way around, where who you are defines what you do.

My team: In a record, I had a line where I said "if I stop, it all stops, so I can't stop at all" but that's not the case. Truthfully, you guys individually are the elements that could make any artist a success. You could take me out the equation and put another rapper in my spot and he'd be set up nice! I just appreciate that you guys believe in me so much that you throw your weight on my side of the scale.

When you're waiting to get on, you sometimes feel like you're waiting for your life to begin. This is a stretch in comparison but I liken it to what Christians feel when they imagine what heaven might be like. Well, I've had talks with the guys who have seen the afterlife. Guys like Phil.TheGod, like Coodie and Chike or guys like Sham who have worked the best in the biz. And they come back and tell me, "Yo, you got it. Just create the content. Just create the music". We have the team right now that could take over the world.

Bravo! Watch what happens...

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BB Notes: The Ultimate

>Have you seen Black Swan? That is essentially the tale of The Artist's Struggle. When you are so self-involved that you pick yourself apart to the point of pain. When you are so self aware that you deal with a grave sense of narcissism juxtaposed with intense self-loathing...And you gotta pray that serenity prayer, "Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, The strength to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference". As an artist, there is a headspace that you enter where you deal with yourself on such a deep level that you get sick of yourself at times. There are days that I get sick of my own voice. I don't wanna hear myself think! Let alone hear another jay west record. I get into myself because as a solo artist I am the CEO of jay west incorporated. It takes accountability. I was a terrible boyfriend but as an ex-boyfriend I was her best friend. Some of us are drug users. Some of us are sex addicts. But that same sex addict might be an amazing lover. These are my highs and lows. My pluses and minuses. My drugs and candy.

>I try to make music for life, for your days. I try to make music for movies. I make music for moments. I make music for memories. From my memories and For your memories. You know...

>Because, ultimately, what is our life? What is history? What are photographs? Since we're here and we all are in this time what are we doing with it? We all spend the the time. We never get it back. We all spending it. The question is what did you buy. I'm investing in inspiration. That is my last will and testament. The work I've done to inspire.

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